I long for the days of pre-Meniere's but I know that they are long gone. Now I just hope I can make it through the day without having any major symptoms. I have become accustomed to the daily tinnitus, ear pressure, brain fog, lightheaded feeling and headaches. I am grateful that I am not experiencing the vertigo attacks quite so often. Back in mid October 2010 through November 2010 I was averaging one major vertigo attack per week for five weeks straight.I would no sooner start getting back to a more functional existence and I would be slammed with another one. Those were dark days for me and I can truly understand how one can get suicidal when being forced to live with a chronic illness.
I make the choice each morning when I wake up to either live my day to its fullest or to crawl under a rock and pretend I am invisible. Most mornings I choose the positive approach. Even though I may struggle through a day by spending most of it laying on the sofa with my furry little prozac pills (my 2 cats and a dog), I know I am blessed. I have a wonderful husband who is there for me 24/7. A son that cares enough about me to do things to make my life a little easier and happier. Two grandsons that make me smile and give me reason to go on and be there for them. As well as the most amazing group of friends anyone could ever imagine!
Yes, I choose to live in the light , but every once in awhile that light starts to flicker and I get scared and have to remind myself not to give up.
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Oh my goodness I feel for you. I was diagnosed with recurring vestibular neuritis a few months back. This was after months and months of testing. I'm sure you know the drill! My first attack was in 2005 with two more severe attacks in 2008 and 2010. Now I get dizzy on a daily basis due to the damage caused by the attacks. The thought of dealing with this for the rest of my life is so depressing but knowing there are others out there dealing with it is comforting! Hang in there!
Thank you Amy. I am finding the most comfort in talking with others and sharing experiences. The one thing I have learned is that what works for one person may not work for another. There seems to be so many variables with vestibular conditions.
So true...having a dizzy day today...GRRR!! :)
Oh, goodness, do I ever know what you are talking about. Been having Meniere's symptoms since 1995, but the attacks were so infrequent that we couldn't connect them. The beast hit in full force in 2009 and has not left my side. I know how important it is to look on the positive side of things. I'm glad I read this!
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